Brave women and my lazy heart.

GospelMT 15: 21-28

At that time Jesus withdrew to the region of Tyre and Sidon.
And behold, a Canaanite woman of that district came and called out,
“Have pity on me, Lord, Son of David!
My daughter is tormented by a demon.”
But he did not say a word in answer to her.
His disciples came and asked him,
“Send her away, for she keeps calling out after us.”
He said in reply,
“I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.”
But the woman came and did him homage, saying, “Lord, help me.”
He said in reply,
“It is not right to take the food of the children
and throw it to the dogs.”
She said, “Please, Lord, for even the dogs eat the scraps
that fall from the table of their masters.”
Then Jesus said to her in reply,
“O woman, great is your faith!
Let it be done for you as you wish.”
And her daughter was healed from that hour.

My first reaction to that Gospel was thoughts about people who struggle with their importance before God.

-How often we think that God doesn’t have time for us,

that he have more important problems then ours,

that we don’t deserve to talk to God about our personal issues and struggles etc..

It may sound funny for some but for many it is a serious daily struggle.

From other hand, this woman is very brave. She is gentile.

She should not fallow disciples, neither talk to them . She risk a lot. But she is brave. Ready to be humiliated for the sake of her daughter.

 

She bothers me a little.

In some ways I got use to my daily sins and struggles.

People get use to daemons in their lives..day by day.. we can get use to many things..

She doesn’t get use to illness of her daughter. She fights for her.

And me, in many ways, I don’t really fight any more. I just go with the flow.

It scares me as I see a lot of things I got to used to.

My weaknesses, little and bigger sins- they are part of my life. And in some way I’m ok with it..

I’m thinking: When was the last time I was ready to be humiliated before the Lord- “fighting” for somebody or for myself??

When was the last time I had the courage to cry before the Lord,

When was the last time I was unceasingly calling:

“Have pity on me, Lord, Son of David!”

…look with pity on daemons in my life… help me Lord…

 

Uhm.. yea…long time ago.. but it should be my daily cry..

It’s simply because I got used to where I am now.

It’s not so bad at all..

..I could be in much different place,

closer to the Lord,

living my life more seriously,

living my life more seriously,

being more a live,

fighting for others more seriously..

…if I just could let myself be humbled before him..

 

Humbled? How? What does it mean?

 

Yes, I need to think more about it.

We will get to that story back one day.

 

For now I pray that Canaanite women may bother you a little too

And help you to see things that you got use to

Things that should be changed long time ago..

Things, habits, vices, relationships, etc..

…Have pity on me, Lord, Son of David!…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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